自言自語:::Solitary Talk: 2011

29.12.11

旅行蛇麻

從Google直接譯trip hop 得出旅行蛇麻

純直覺....mind mapping

亞馬遜熱帶森林國家地理旅行旅人動物長頸鹿紋本能一星夜下她與土著交配中意外給響尾毒蛇咬了一口全身麻痺
感官放大伸延____ 像旋渦被鼓樂蛇尾震聲捲入掉進____無底洞變了像2001太空漫游的HAL主機/ 奧德賽在無限境界中胡亂醒轉為了報復不措一切將土人及蛇殺死

26.12.11

25.12.11

New girl! love zooey deschanel!
i am loving this drama! funny and optimistic!
i wish i have flatmates like them
suck it you Mr. crap!!!!
i am glad that you dump me, otherwise i don't know how to make an end of it!
suck it you Mr. liar.

21.12.11

it is a bliss either to live or die here

Location: Nagano, Japan

Use: Summer house
Completion: 2010
Steel construction
Land area: 590.94㎡
Total floor area: 71.37㎡

http://thisispaper.com/#2432810/Kyoko-Ikuta-and-Katsuyuki-Ozeki-Forest-bath

This house is absolutely lovely and ambient. The only thing i can think of about the outdoor area where you can have sunbath facing the forest. is the Laputa tune of Joe Hisaishi....
Just imagine lying down, enjoying the sun with the music... i wish i can die in such way

yoichi yamamoto architects: 2D/3D chairs for issey miyake

I love this store interior so much.. if the plain coloured t-shirt costs you like 50quid... i'd still love to buy it.... lol this is packaging and marketing KID!

for more information :http://www.designboom.com/weblog/cat/9/view/15354/yoichi-yamamoto-architects-2d3d-chairs-for-issey-miyake.html

19.12.11

踊ってばかりの国「悪魔の子供」reflection::

i love the music video so much and i made this afterward.

::::///Crazy rabbit uncle is in love with cute shy young guitarist
the pink deer is the god of the fancy party where people will pop all the grassy green balloons when they are high///::::::

18.12.11

Chillwave clouds

11.12.11

Guided Saccade (installation) by Matthew Biederman

HK audio-visual artist::: CHOI SAI HO

http://www.choisaiho.com/ basically they are all my favorite tracks! i'd recommend Track 2,3 then 4,5,6,7,8,9,10 yea,please just spend some time listen to all of them. They are all in quite different styles, i m so impressed how he achieved that!

as well as his visual projects:: my favorite is this one 'Keep Cool'

2.12.11

Grimes-Claire Boucher

30.11.11

All you need to do is dance.:: Interactive dance floor project by tomlaan

Crowd DJ is a dance controlled interactive sound mixer that gives the crowd control over the musical output.
Each area of the dance floor activates a sound channel. But, when the dancing stops, the music will immediately shut down – demanding that the crowd is constantly active and keep the energy going. The crowd is in control, so by working together the composition can be altered or complete silence created.

The way DJs perform nowadays is constantly changing. This sometimes leads to (somewhat) boring performances. So, why not challenge the audience a bit and give them a bigger responsibility?

http://tomlaan.nl/2011/crowd-dj/

tomlaan**

check out his amazing tunes!!(click the green link above!)*

15.11.11

can't be more relaxing thanks for this xxx

Breathe on my Contacts by TOKiMONSTA

4.11.11

very random

um.. just had a best roll EVER! i'm glad that i learnt
.....Practice makes perfect.

BFI. i NEED to go. A very dreamy thought: watching French new wave movies there
nice big seat and popcorn are enquired.

Endless postcard collection
it is almost like having a reproduction exhibition in my room. quite often i changed them for every 3-6 months it depends if i have got hold of something delicious

Tattoo
just so used to my fake tattoo. i love when people saw them on my arms and started to talk about their desire of getting a real one, and usually ended up not having one as parents will chopped their heads if they do or lack of courage...
but i quite like the fact that it is temporary and watching it getting washed out day by day
also the fact that i knew it is temporary but i still wanted to put it on my skin.....
i suppose this is about the notion of being not to aware of stuff is not timeless.. V.S still knowing it is always the fact.....

blahblahblah....

i love rumbling on my blog as there is no an actual person responding me, which i can keep going on
without making any sense... you know when you talk about life and stuff in front of someone, you will just need to ask" Am i making sense?" or like" um.. i hope it is not too cheesy".. and i find it putting me off... just so annoying... i am definitely like whispering to the damn tree hole....

what-so-ever

Bonne Nuit
x

30.10.11

This is a War

如果這刻我不將現在記下來
如果我不思考現在這刻

這是一場戰爭

開端已經殘酷

身體內有一恐佈的空虛怪物正在蠶食心與胃
子宮努力將這種負能量變成經血排出體外
手指不受大腦控制地活躍在鍵盤上
一筆一劃地打出的文字並不看似任何怪物
對著無形的你像耳語般說出我有多麼的想把你殺死

你老是喜歡纏著我
得到了一個由空殼組成的空殼

又有何用?

經期期週期圓圈
來去去回來
呼吸像二氧化碳的空虛
一呼一吸
直到死亡讓空氣把身體腐壞

由現在起時間慢了一個小時
混亂的思維不斷尋找正確的時間
有一瞬間我到了一個停止的空間
像沙子零空飄留在時漏的中間點
突然覺得自己是其中一顆沙子
掉進那無數與自己一樣的沙堆中
等待有人把沙漏倒轉

反反復復
得到了又如何
錯過了又如何

24.10.11

My 2 experimental sound pieces inspired by Jean-Luc Godard

Qu'est-le que c'est degueulasse? by doro fu One of the most important New Wave movie A bout de souffle(1960) and it is my favourite movie, i recorded the last scene which it is the most controversial one, Michel(the car thief) threw a cruel comment just before he died to Patricia, the girl who actually called the police so Michel got shot when he was escaping. A man was being betrayed and even 'killed' by a sweetheart. I re-edited the conversation and added a intensive drum soundtrack indicating the heartbeat of Michel while emphasizing the word: dégueulasse Je suis vraiment dégueulasse - Qu'est ce qu'il a dit ? - Il a dit : "vous êtes vraiment une dégueulasse" - Qu'est-ce que c'est "dégueulasse" Michel:"Life's a bitch." Patricia:"What did he say?" Police: "He said,'You're a bitch.' (déguellasse)" Patrica:"What's a déguellasse?" déguellasse in French is meaning discussing it is an expression but what is the real meaning of it for Michel or Patricia.. nobody knows...

Qu'est ce que je peux faire?Je sais pas quoi faire! by doro fu I selected the famous line of Anna Karina as Marianne Renoir in the movie- Pierrot le fou by Jean-Luc Godard in 1965. The metronome intercrossed with my breathe, with the guitar and subtle keyboard tones and intensive effect of the conversation, this gives me a moment to reflect what am i doing and do i really wanna know. Marianne Renoir: Qu'est ce que je peux fairs? Je sais pas quoi faire!!! (In English: What am I going to do? I I don't know what to do!!!) http://soundcloud.com/ doro-fu

23.10.11

A system

Could our life system be like this? sorry my brain is so full of triangles these days probably it is permanent... every day i keep thinking relationship between 3 different stuff// have been thinking why is it so contradicted to make a equal triangle hallow sculpture which has to be perfect while it sounds so easy and simple

apparently i am now trying to keep a visual diary here....
trying to keep things in three lol
today's main 3 stuff go to... 1. Human space 2. Submarine 3. a perfume that can't be sprayed

A very interesting part i have read in Human space by O.F Bollnow today
very precisely i recall page.88, The foreign:

.....Nietzsche recognized this very clearly in the second of his Thoughts out of seasons. "A living thing" , he writes," can only be healthy, strong and productive with a certain horizon: if it be incapable of drawing on round itself.. it will come to an untimely end. Cheerfulness, a good conscience, belief in the future, the joyful deed, all depend... on there being a line the divides the visible and clear from vague and shadowy. Nietzsche then applies this particular to his relationship with his own past, and it serves to escape from an excess of historical knowledge, but it is also, and even primarily, true of human relationships between what's one own and what is foreign. Nietasche adopts the geographical concept of the horizon in a figurative sense in order to describe this demarcation from an excess of foreignness.

What i interpret from that is there is always a line between different sort of things, but of course there is connection between them, however primarily they are always individuals.
this is what i am intrigued by tonight^^

Bonne nuit

5.10.11

SLEEP ∞ OVER - La Rose

24.9.11

生命中不能承受的輕的怪獸 the monster in the unbearable lightness of being

22.9.11

惡夢便當

頭很重
不知是被什麼壓著
或是裡面有什麼在膨脹著
以為睡一睡會好一點
結果惡夢連篇

它們沒有一刻是可以讓我靜止下來
汗流夾背中要爭扎醒來
卻是困難無比
然而醒來又好像沒有醒過來

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山火直升機代步走公路上山打電話救火又遇見不肯收捨死老鼠的女管理員
癲狂互打的暈車片段長滿紅點的臉
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又可能因為快要回大學
惡夢自動浮現

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宿舍要共用洗手間一屋竟有十多人而有一房全是粉紅色芭比娃娃的佈置
中國籍女同房正在埋頭苦幹完成數學功課
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這幾天有睡根本等於沒有睡過
沒有靈魂的人睡著也是在閒蕩著
醒來只不過身體不是在躺著
很討厭以為很明白自己在做什麼的感覺

下面這首是甜梅號的惡夢便當
剛好配合上面寫的垃圾
還有馬克白的兔子跑實在太Catchy 連日成個腦都係LOOP緊rabbit run
father father you are my only parent

16.9.11

純屬巧合 only coincidence

today's delta Mak Kay, Leslie Cheung, James Dean

P.S Copic markers are AWESOME -3-

just a thought by Murakami

"Things outside you are projections of what's inside you, and what's inside you is a projection of what's outside. So when you step into the labyrinth outside you, at the same time you're stepping into the labyrinth inside."- Kafka in the shore by Murakami

11.9.11

They Walked In Line - Warsaw (Joy Division)

10.9.11

Joy Division self division

1.9.11

Washed Out - Soft (HD MUSIC VIDEO)

really you have caught my eyes:::

I really didn't know Battles is from New York since i saw this poster in Bologna, Italy for the first time
i was so fucking curious about the form, colour and textures of the freaking weird object
it totally got my eyes on it
just randomly wandered on anonymous people bloggers and eventually found stuff about Battles in http://pulp.bluecircus.net/(音速青春) a blog from Taiwan::: a guy who loves indie//rock so many music..... which drove him to England for a music festival at the age of 20 and he got a book about how his life in NY..... pretty interesting for me

well i found the blog above from this blog::
http://kafkabythe.blogspot.com/(海邊的卡夫卡 Kafka on the shore) it is a music blog from Taiwan
i found it pretty helpful since i have not much ideas about Taiwan indie music

my favorite track is ft. Kazu Makino from Blonde Redhead, sure her voice is known as very unique, soft and spiritual... i just like her so much sometime i think she looks so much alike with Charlotte Gainsbourg !yeah<3

30.8.11

because of agnès b radio ///

i remember she told me she found my blog accidently in google when she typed" agnès b. radio"
in the search bar
that's how we met

it is funny enough to see each other in HK for the very first time
i suppose it is what people say faith or perhaps a not so beautified word would be coincidence
she told me loads of her hilarious stories which are all based on the truth
it is really happy to just laugh about stuff
Woody Allen said When tragedy meets time, it becomes a joke. (it is not the original quote)
really, if something is really matter,then it matters but for not long, please just laugh about it.

13.8.11

有很多時候就像
你牢盯著前面山景享受多年不變的優美景色
但當你安享處於這狀態時
世間事物同時在不停萬變
或許在很久以前做一隻井底之蛙是快樂無比
但現今資訊發達一個電話一開電視一上網便知道世界另一頭在發生什麼事
像我在家中開空調平靜看書另一邊廂倫敦等英國多個地方正發生暴動
人愈長大便愈發現種種醜陋的事實
有時心中會很不忿很震驚有一種很想為自己抱打不平的衝動
問題就是人是總會為自己尋找問題因此常說無知可以是福
但在正常的腦部發育下是問人怎不能沒有愈成熟的思考愈細緻的感情等等
我爸常說煩惱是人自尋的或者我會這樣詮釋煩惱也會自動找上門但若我們用不太執著的態度去面對相信它們自然會迎刃而解

11.8.11

新裤子 After Party

你說得真好我要存下時時看一看

我所能谈到的艺术行业——鄢醒

我所能谈到的艺术行业

文：鄢醒

尽管我从6，7岁时就开始学画，从未间断，经过学堂，进入庙堂，顺水推舟地进入了一个所谓的江湖，在这漫长的17，8年里，我习惯着以一个“学生”的心态敬畏着我所处的这个行业。但是，我粗糙的双眼似乎无法明了那个象牙塔。我想，我心中永远住着一位委拉斯开兹¹（Diego Rodríguez de Silva y Velázquez，1599年6月6日－1660年8月6日），他在自己的花园里耕种，不辞辛劳，他的经验只在那些枝繁叶茂之间。这位大师不断鞭策着我——妄想尽快了解他——急于尽快丢弃他——反而尽快让这种想法流于形式。梳理自己心中对艺术的看法很难，尤其是像我这样，在长时间的离心力驱使下，表达笃定认同很难，表达质疑否定很难。我逐渐习惯了这种不确定的确定，它与我所获得的快感唇齿相依。

在大多数人看来，我侥幸赶上了末班车。但，我真是曾迷茫过的碰壁教主啊。两年前，我为了用稳定的工作换取创作上的自由，每天来回在路上耗费三个小时。每一天，我都在焦虑地警惕着自己的懦弱；每一天的每三个小时，我都在恶狠狠的诅咒全世界；每三小时中的每一分钟，我都在恨铁不成钢与吃苦方能人上人之间徘徊；每180分钟里的每一秒，我都无法正视自己牛逼的校园作品与当时蜗居状态压根儿无法创作的现状。在成为了不争气的都市白领半年后，我辞职了。而后的三个月几乎是我这几年中最失望的时期，朝九晚五的生活让我绝望，盲流混沌的生活同样让我绝望，最绝望的是这些外部的不利因素无时无刻不在撞击着我充满希望的骄傲灵魂。也许，我还没有资格这样去“回顾”，但，这段经历告诉我，正是有那么多理所当然的所谓的“资格”，才让那么多的年轻艺术家被尘封在旮旯里，无人问津。

如果你像我一样，充满理想，热血沸腾，在修学的蹒跚中坚信这条道路——“我相信我所走的路是自己的路，我相信自己走的是正路。”²这一点不允许你有任何迟疑，你必须诀绝地坚信它，尽管它很有可能在你的迟暮之年才会日渐清晰。艺术的一切属性都证明它来得晚，比你想象中还要晚。

除了等待，好像没有别的速成法则。我的自尊心不允许我每天拿着烫手的光盘四处见策展人，虽然这是年轻艺术家获得机会的少有法则之一。在经历了毕业阵痛之后，我决定曲线救国。我幻想着在画廊坐台的生活，幻想着拥抱艺术的权利成为指点江山的艺妓，幻想着北京这样的城市必定需要我这么伶牙俐齿又专业优秀的艺术工作者，就在我浸淫于无限的遐想中时，一个艺术机构找到了我，工作是做艺术品销售，说好听点儿是艺术品投资顾问，说白了就是卖商品。在她看我简历的那一刹那，我蔑到了她眼神中的不屑，她不加掩饰地看着我：“才毕业？创作枯竭了？清楚了吧，不是每个人都能当艺术家的……”经历了备受打击的半年北漂生活，我没有勇气反驳，只能合着唾沫一起咽了。当然，在经过第二轮全英文面试之后，我被顺利录取，又当然，我立即就撕票了。不管是在此时此刻还是在彼时彼地，我的自尊都容不得半点沙子。回到驼房营的八平卧室，我痛哭流涕，擦干眼泪继续找工作，又心虚地做好PDF往别的画廊邮箱里发。一个小时后我查邮箱，由于我粗心大意将人家邮箱后的点儿com写成了点儿cm被退回来。但就在这个时候，一位艺术家和一位策展人发了一封邮件约我见面……

这里我有一句话想与你们共勉——“正视别人、尤其是你的长辈对你的‘赞赏’、‘推荐’和‘提携’。如果他的赞赏还附加了艺术之外的、特别是你反感履约的条件，他的赞赏和推荐都将值得怀疑。反之，如果他的赞赏和推荐除了艺术还是艺术，你却轻易放弃对他的信任，只能意味着你的昏聩和轻率。”³

曾经，我也委曲求全过，很辛苦，发自肺腑痛恨逢场作戏，虚与委蛇。江湖庙堂要说完全不在乎，也许不可能。当然，在你被艺术圈的名录点过之后，你会有一个接一个的展览做下去，有一个接一个的机会去实施新的项目。这之中，有的令你兴奋期待，有的令你憔悴失意；有的还能令你一炮而红，有的则能让你一臭很多年；有的能让你在红地毯上飘飘欲仙，有的能让你在疾病与孤独中逐渐消沉。这个行业赤裸裸地关乎着荣耀、利益、成败，你无法绕过它，只能赤裸裸地与它面面相觑。但，不管怎么说，这个行业，是我的理想，终我一生，只求少点悔恨。

这都是我的心里话，平时我不这样说话，谢谢你们给我这个机会。对了，我下个月的北京个展，敬请期待，再见！

2011-7-21

鄢醒的blog:http://blog.yan-xing.org/

「承傳與創造—水墨對水墨」及「承傳與創造—藝術對藝術」-香港藝術館

本身是沒有想過要去這個展覽因為昨天約了朋友到尖沙咀The One 18樓囂吧(順帶一提: 環境不俗又可以觀看維港日落景色下午去HH 有微風不會太熱) 言歸正傳因早到便到藝術館去涼個冷氣我對香港藝術館不是太存有好感(細到嘔電,常設展覽悶到嘔茄) 除了2 3樓有sofa 可以觀看維港景色 "任坐唔嬲" 不過要吹水的請降低聲線除了星期三學生入場費也不過是5元正暑假天氣炎熱商場鋪頭一式一樣早已看嫌咖啡廳燈光過暗又喧嘩聲似街市想看書的不宜久留好好好再一次言歸正傳上一次不算說真我很喜歡這個展覽特別是「承傳與創造—藝術對藝術」展品不多但勝在算生動有趣

近似現場的展示形式

一入門口右手面便有洪強的錄像裝置藝術一個死胡同的設計置身在三面掛有Panasonic電視裡感覺像小時候到大型電器店觀看永遠放一樣頻道的眾電視機們而眼睛會花大約幾秒去找一個盲點(隨意一電視)去死盯著我便是用這個方式去欣賞因為我認為藝術家沒有過於著重表達錄像內容而是整體上暈眩的包圍效果 (剛剛看到簡介附有同樣作品在另外地方是以大型銀幕投影展出) 就是因為藝術館面積有限就可能將作品原意大大打了折扣(which i fucking hate)
然後我便用我一向"倒鈙法" 先走馬看花直入最深處可能因為我最愛看的投影/錄像作品(有一間房,有簾)大多放在較"低調"的地方因為他們不會被放在入口當眼處伍韶勁的光之紀錄概念出色但會由於我對其作品的製作方法(高科技)不太熟悉因此到現在也不太明白但勝在有感觀配樂則沒有給我大太印象

白雙全:呼吸一間屋的空氣 2006

黃國才:顯赫家族2009

展覽內最令我印象深刻的是白雙全的"呼吸一間屋的空氣"video作品內容大致上記錄他在韓國釜山的一所小型住所內十天把一個個透明膠袋吹氣然後將它們一個個搭上直至充滿整個單位我完全被他的無聊及誠意打動我更認為有時候最簡單直接的藝術是最能影響人成功的藝術品是不用大篇文章也可以直接同觀眾(Audiences)有交流我記得曾經有一位前輩跟我講過創作藝術的人不能再單純地為了抒發自己不能夠只用自己的第一身去思考到現在他的說話我也牢記著不過實行進度較慢無論如何不只是藝術思考世間萬物都不能太主觀要多角度去分析同時亦不要迷失自我就是所謂的風格或者還有一點就是要堅持相信自己這樣有一天總有人會欣賞你
另外我十分喜歡黃國才的顯赫家族他以聰明的簡單設計將黑色幽默匯入日常生活用品來諷刺時下本地地產商壟斷及以豪華廣告去誤導消費者的詬病

唐詠詩人墨2009

在另一邊「承傳與創造—水墨對水墨」, 看到一個投影作品以水墨作靈感由一點墨化成一個千百萬點的"跑步墨人" 算是生動有趣特別提起是因為藝術家加了水的聲效使到空間有一重永無上境的效果即使錄像內容簡單也不有聽覺的感觀衝擊而且這一點跟我自己上一個大學作品很相近
我幾乎認為她也跟我一樣自個在水桶用手的撥動而產生似漣漪聲效

What you see it's not what it seems 2011
我把魚兒投影再錄像再投影在一空間內播放之前錄的水聲可惜概念模糊不清(Vague)

總結一下在場所見大多以精美畫作表達的藝術家翻一翻簡介大多是出身中大藝術系以另類媒體如LED 投影等多是有外國藝術碩士學位當然亦有藝術家如謝淑婷在中大藝術系畢業亦有澳洲墨爾本皇家理工大學藝術碩士學位(不知是否HKAS中FINEART合辦那個) 她的作品是處景INSTALLATION 因此在那可以見到藝術家受中或西或本港一套影響之深淺與否
門口GREETING以龔志成也斯梅卓燕合作將三大元素音樂文學(詩) 舞蹈集成以由天花投影到地上但個人認為我在望錄像又要同時間回望印有詩句的牆身我明白用意是希望觀眾可以俯視展廳但這樣要我轉來轉去令到也斯的詩句同音樂及現代舞抽離亦使出一種格格不入的合成感覺

Jenny Holzer

而且投影太細真的像一張地毯一張放在屋前的地毯完全是GREETING 可惜不夠大方
我認為不仿可以參考 Jenny Holzer 的投影字句詩句於不同建築物上或室內凝造視覺伸延空間擴大的效後而且更可以引領入場者有一種導入式的效用

28.7.11

bao bei wo ai ni::

22.7.11

迷幻列車:choose your future.choose life.

是的,昨晚是我第一次看這部電影看畢整部都知跟火車沒有直接關係整個腦海都是被那死嬰跟" the best toilet in Scotland" 充斥可想此電影是勵志的吸毒危害健康影響一生
當然吸毒對我僅是會在電影裡出現而Trainspotting 真的把吸毒過程拍得很真實
OST 一個字:正電影真是太英國了就是因為那些似火星語的蘇格蘭口音及那些去PUB飲酒口水橫飛 CLUB場找今晚獵物等等配以Blur///New order//Joy Division//etc. 襯爆一味懶佬調皮憤世嫉俗

我的分析: 主角有小聰明衰好運家中雙親不離不棄獲美少女點醒世界萬物皆在變化在所謂的好友中極其空虛及早脫離自立門戶恭喜發財做人要帶點壞帶點良心好讓其他人還相信好人有好報

19.7.11

無無聊聊笑點仍然低

久違了的蔡同志無無聊聊笑點仍然低並共組貝戈戈人文偽組合

14.7.11

晚跑

晚上跑步可將一天的悶氣由汗水散發出來
一亮亮街燈好像電影般從彎角續一出現
晚風吹著我的臉低頭可看見影子中頭髮在飄揚
身後多處光源將我身分成三個影子
前後不一步伐一致

停車場的白光管襯托被雨水弄得深淺不一的石屎牆一條條淚痕似的光管光芒毫不客氣將它們全部呈現出來
那處一眨一眨的光管像是作最後掙扎突然蟋蟀叫聲更響更雜
我呼吸節奏變得急速一刻將其他轉成靜音我抬頭把畫面成姣潔的月光與深藍的天空

多麼想可打破離心力的規定令我可慢慢浮上天隨風吹走

今天的喉嚨痛加乾咳好像來得對的時候
就讓我少說話幾天有時我寧可猜想你心想什麼
而我有問題的時候很想和親愛的人說可是我知根本是徙勞的
說我無用但從不想過我曾試圖自己一人解決問題的努力
人為什麼都只顧表面與後果
究竟是否知道過程與未來無從知曉的道理呢

晚跑中兜兜轉轉最後跑回家又全不覺自己是屬於此

8.7.11

My tumblr

http://dororofu.tumblr.com/

發覺自己都係好膚淺極鐘意睇圖片而不是文字或者可能是圖片始終可以俾到我第一的視覺衝擊直接影響我腦神經我決定都整個tumblr 只是放我看完喜歡的圖片有關art fashion film music text.......咩都好來一次只用圖片沖擊自己大腦如果你有時間又賞面就得閒禁去睇下http://dororofu.tumblr.com/ 我想做到會睇既人會有衝動去SAVE低張相 or做further research :)
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