This is a War

如果這刻我不將現在記下來
如果我不思考現在這刻

這是一場戰爭

開端已經殘酷

身體內有一恐佈的空虛怪物正在蠶食心與胃
子宮努力將這種負能量變成經血排出體外
手指不受大腦控制地活躍在鍵盤上
一筆一劃地打出的文字 並不看似任何怪物
對著無形的你 像耳語般說出我有多麼的想把你殺死

你老是喜歡纏著我
得到了一個由空殼組成的空殼

又有何用?

經期 期 週期 圓圈
來 去 去 回來
呼吸像二氧化碳的空虛
一呼一吸
直到死亡 讓空氣把身體腐壞

由現在起 時間慢了一個小時
混亂的思維不斷尋找正確的時間
有一瞬間我到了一個停止的空間
像沙子零空飄留在時漏的中間點
突然覺得自己是其中一顆沙子
掉進那無數與自己一樣的沙堆中
等待有人把沙漏倒轉

反反復復
得到了又如何
錯過了又如何

My 2 experimental sound pieces inspired by Jean-Luc Godard

Qu'est-le que c'est degueulasse? by doro fu One of the most important New Wave movie A bout de souffle(1960) and it is my favourite movie, i recorded the last scene which it is the most controversial one, Michel(the car thief) threw a cruel comment just before he died to Patricia, the girl who actually called the police so Michel got shot when he was escaping. A man was being betrayed and even 'killed' by a sweetheart. I re-edited the conversation and added a intensive drum soundtrack indicating the heartbeat of Michel while emphasizing the word: dégueulasse Je suis vraiment dégueulasse - Qu'est ce qu'il a dit ? - Il a dit : "vous êtes vraiment une dégueulasse" - Qu'est-ce que c'est "dégueulasse" Michel:"Life's a bitch." Patricia:"What did he say?" Police: "He said,'You're a bitch.' (déguellasse)" Patrica:"What's a déguellasse?" déguellasse in French is meaning discussing it is an expression but what is the real meaning of it for Michel or Patricia.. nobody knows...

Qu'est ce que je peux faire?Je sais pas quoi faire! by doro fu I selected the famous line of Anna Karina as Marianne Renoir in the movie- Pierrot le fou by Jean-Luc Godard in 1965. The metronome intercrossed with my breathe, with the guitar and subtle keyboard tones and intensive effect of the conversation, this gives me a moment to reflect what am i doing and do i really wanna know. Marianne Renoir: Qu'est ce que je peux fairs? Je sais pas quoi faire!!! (In English: What am I going to do? I I don't know what to do!!!) http://soundcloud.com/ doro-fu

A system

Could our life system be like this? sorry my brain is so full of triangles these days probably it is permanent... every day i keep thinking relationship between 3 different stuff// have been thinking why is it so contradicted to make a equal triangle hallow sculpture which has to be perfect while it sounds so easy and simple

apparently i am now trying to keep a visual diary here....
trying to keep things in three lol
today's main 3 stuff go to... 1. Human space 2. Submarine 3. a perfume that can't be sprayed

A very interesting part i have read in Human space by O.F Bollnow today
very precisely i recall page.88, The foreign:

.....Nietzsche recognized this very clearly in the second of his Thoughts out of seasons. "A living thing" , he writes," can only be healthy, strong and productive with a certain horizon: if it be incapable of drawing on round itself.. it will come to an untimely end. Cheerfulness, a good conscience, belief in the future, the joyful deed, all depend... on there being a line the divides the visible and clear from vague and shadowy. Nietzsche then applies this particular to his relationship with his own past, and it serves to escape from an excess of historical knowledge, but it is also, and even primarily, true of human relationships between what's one own and what is foreign. Nietasche adopts the geographical concept of the horizon in a figurative sense in order to describe this demarcation from an excess of foreignness.


What i interpret from that is there is always a line between different sort of things, but of course there is connection between them, however primarily they are always individuals.
this is what i am intrigued by tonight^^

Bonne nuit 

SLEEP ∞ OVER - La Rose