2010.12.31

時間完全被顛倒

但時間繼續前行

此刻我心中是幾點

似是凌晨

 黃昏
  
 日出?

現在是二零一零年的最後一天

如果人類沒有將日子一格格訂在刻板的日曆上

今天會是什麼?

時間可否不要一秒一分地過著

試想著它化成3D立體造型 在我眼前飛過

似是一片片葉子 由右至左 由東至西 在空氣浮走著

有時慢得可被抓住 有時快得像子彈可弄傷人

時間可不會顧得什麼

它是冷酷但溫柔的

它是矛盾但理智的

時間是無形的能量

因此地球不停的自轉

人類愚蠢的萬有引力

卻是永無至境的存在

時間才是一切

你?

是連一粒細沙都不如

P.S 新年快樂 可否 不用是新年也快槳!!

prepare for the postcard show

My boyfriend is a ghost,2010
Ink marker pen, acrylic 

P.s' My girlfriend is a ghost' is coming soon. =]

如果蔡健雅唱會更好聽,但她也唱得好

那麼 為什麼是我 我真的脆弱
記憶丟石頭 偷襲便逃走
為什麼 我不覺得快樂 也不覺得難過
為什麼而活 愛又算什麼
好多假動作 我們都寂寞

別問我是誰

i cried every time i watched the English Patient.
中文名真係改得好,別問我是誰.

Valentine Fillol Cordier

the creative director of

Charles Anastase 

Charles Anastase SS2011

http://valentinefillolcordierportfolio.blogspot.com/
(her blog)

Half price for Diango Hernandez book!

Diamonds and Stones: my education
Diango Hernandez
One of my favourvite artist 

Untitled from Dorothy Fu on Vimeo.

flashback drawing mixed with my b/w autophoto

世間真美好 好朋友來聽返首好歌~

這幾天好讓我慢慢思考
想通了好多事情
有點像那個男人, 只要往後一望, 便看到那開著的大門
我像找到我那扇門

一陣陣清風將煩人的記憶吹走
它吹過我眼廉 我眼睫輕輕擦過一片金光
然後把眼睛張開
前面呈現出像一片未被收割的金色麥田
我深深呼吸一下 大步跨出門檻
往下看 原來是一條小水道
我以為我會把腳弄濕
但這世界的重力似是消失
我像羽毛一樣站在水上
小小的漣漪輕輕泛起
似是提醒我這一切都是真的

我把手張開 合上雙眼
憑著感覺 像行獨木般小心翼翼地前行
了無牽掛的心 放蕩地亂闖
突然重力重返 整個人跌進水中
眼前一片黑 身體像石頭沉下
隨波逐流
懶理塵世間的煩事

或許這是我在塵世中的一個秘密國度
一個我可以尋找和做回自己的地方


一邊聽著林憶蓮的'願', 是由我的朋友介紹
我很想她好, 我的鼻子不由自住地發酸
我知道我的知己是永在身旁的 無論分得有多遠

FINALLY, LET'S CALL IT AN END.

SO GOOD
SO COSY
SO LAZY
SO QUIET
SO PEACEFUL
SO LOVELY
SO DELICIOUS
SO NICE
SO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD

潘迪華XHK INDIE: My Dream My Way My Indie Music

seriously she looks like my mum lol

潘迪華XHK INDIE: My Dream My Way My Indie Music

This album is brilliant! Such a shame i just knew now... it was out last year!
I couldn't find any clip on youtube, but the music is really great!

Here i will share a video of Rebecca Pan's music:

Garden State

I didn't know Zach Braff can be like this. Probably i hate Scrubs too much. It is a very moving film.
I feel really surprised that he can write such a story, and as usual, Natalie Portman, such a great actress.
I remember my sister got this soundtrack and i've listened to it, so it is really interesting to watch a movie when you are so familiar with the soundtracks, it is like dejuva, unlike watching trailers as they always mislead the audiences. After watching this, i just realise i am one of the pathological liars, i think i am not a serious one though, but i always lie to strangers or not strangers.. mostly strangers, if not strangers, i will tell them the truth afterwards. And sometime i would say something which it is not true instinctively, even i knew it is a liar. I have no idea why. But i suppose this is nothing serious as so far i am doing ok.

A new feeling of a place after 8 years

Montmatre/Amilie<3

A trip to Paris in 5 days, it convinces me more about the fact that "enjoy the moment,life is short,life is so out of expectation."

鄧麗君的歌聲伴隨著我這個失眠的清晨

不斷不斷的日文情句 似懂非懂
有一種神奇的力量 去撫平我心中傷口

很久沒有一個人呆坐 今晚房子額外寧靜
此時淚盈於睫 可是臉上表情欠奉

只怪

每次意外地遇見你

意外身亡的情感
又好像得到了醫療保險
甦醒起來

這種日子還要折磨我多久

或許我的努力還未夠

種種嘗試不能得到你的心
種種嘗試又不能去忘記你

完全地感受不到戀愛的感覺
只知似是在雞蛋裡挑骨頭

別人說因愛成恨

但根本就沒有愛過

柏拉圖說戀愛是一種嚴重的精神病

我說倘若患上精神病, 可能它叫做戀愛

不甘寂莫的人為何要影響我

我生活了二十年 明明一個人就沒有問題

為何要破壞它

我恨它 但又要去適應它

我對它恨之入骨 但偏偏要挑戰它

只怪自己好勝 

奈何我也是人一個

我需要擁抱 不只是情人的擁抱

可惡的情人們偷走好友們的體溫

從小到現在

還是在浴室自言自語

還是自己牽自己的手入睡

還是睡醒看到白色的天花

還是每晨牽強地給自己一個笑容

還是跟著地上階磚走路自娛

還是不斷咬唇至嘗到血味

我似是什麼都不缺 奈何只差一位知己

悲觀原是因現實 殘酷地讓我不敢期望

其實我己經停止尋找 要來的自然會來

反正我還是自己唯一最後的知己

可能是貓貓的詛咒 我從小忍心掉去男貓貓
將他們分開十二年 

別人叫我不要想太多 奈何我是靠幻想而過活

我真不願長大 不過我倒是明白出家人的過人之處

情慾是身外物 嘗了又如何 就似是掉了一根頭髮舨平庸

真正的愛情故事只能在電影裡出現 因此我永遠在發電影夢

人類真可悲 我也是 時間快點過 快點讓我做回自己 我不需要虛情假意

鄧麗君 (テレサ・テン) ~~ つぐない / 偿还(日) (1984)

窓に西陽が あたる部屋は
Mado ni nishibi ga ataru heya wa
いつもあなたの 匂いがするわ
Itsumo anata no nioi ga suru wa
ひとり暮らせば 想いだすから
Hitori kuraseba omoidasu kara
壁の傷も残したまま おいてゆくわ
Kabe no kizu mo nokoshita mama oite yuku wa

※愛をつぐなえば 別れになるけど
Ai o tsugunaeba wakare ni naru kedo
こんな女でも 忘れないでね
Konna onna demo wasurenai de ne
やさしすぎたのあなた
Yasashi sugita no anata
子供みたいなあなた
Kodomo mitai na anata
あすは他人同士に なるけれど※
Asu wa tanindoshi ni narukeredo

心残りはあなたのこと
Kokoro nokori wa anata no koto
少し煙草もひかえめにして
Sukoshi tabako mo hikaeme ni shite
過去に縛られ暮らすことより
Kako ni shibarare kurasu koto yori
私よりも可愛い人探すことよ
Watashi yori mo kawaii hito sagasu koto yo

愛をつぐなえば重荷になるから
Ai o tsugunaeba omoni ni naru kara
この町を離れ暮らしてみるわ
Kono machi o hanare kurashite miru wa
お酒のむのもひとり
Osake nomu nomo hitori
夢を見るのもひとり
Yume o miru nomo hitori
あすは他人同士になるけれど
Asu wa tanindoshi ni narukere do

Christmas cards

3rd video

ligtlightlight from Dorothy Fu on Vimeo.

this is a third experiment, but i am not really happy with the sound. this one is mostly express the feeling of staring at one object for a long time and you eyes will start to feel dizzy and all the strange things will appear in your brain.

Amelie from Montmartre

i can't believe i am going to Montmartre, it is such a beautiful place, very cultural...
the thing is my favourite movie was taken therenow, my tear is coming i think i will cry when i am there
when i see the Merry-go round in Basilica of the sacre coeur
when i see the Café les Deux Moulins


OK, I won't act too much like a tourist i know it is stupid.
calm down this movie just inspired me A LOT!

Shadow Projection

Shadow Projection from Dorothy Fu on Vimeo.
This is a second video of my experiment, i aim at focusing on shadow rather than just light. It has some elements of the previous video ( 60sec video) and i will do more audio editing as this one has not much sounds on it.

中學奇想

我們都是熱血青年
好熱 好熱 好熱

我們到涼爽的圖書館
決定不說話
只用書名溝通

當我們的汗冷卻被校服吸收

散發住一陣陣荷爾蒙的味道

大家眼神似是要衝到廁所

但最後我們選擇到
麥當奴買杯2蚊雪糕

我們都是熱血青年

你帶我到你家中

你努力地爬上那高高的書架

偷偷地拿了你爸爸的西洋AV影碟

我們在房內緊張地觀看
聰明的我們把聲音關上

一邊看 一邊聽到你婆婆洗碗的水聲

我們都是熱血青年

好熱 好熱 好熱

我們決定跑到海邊

把腳浸到咸水中降溫

我們都是熱血青年

好熱 好熱 好熱
我們脫掉所有衣服
跳進香檳泳池中

toothache

These days i am having toothache
my teeth is growing again
it was sleeping


last time it woke up in March
now it is December
it is snowing


every time when my tongue touches the teeth
i feel like....
the earth is spinning
the baby is about to be born from its mother's vagina
the erection of a strange man under his jean in the underground
the bone of lover's arm
the headache on the plane




it is very magical that my teeth is soon be above my gum without any bleeding.

60 sec video NO.1

(1)60sec video workshop from Dorothy Fu on Vimeo.

維根斯坦名言

一個人與環境格格不入的時候，他的一切理智就失去了應有的正常，顯出各種病態。祇有讓他回歸本性，才會有良好的結果，使一切顯出正常。(我想做回自己就是愛自己,就是珍惜生命, 當人以為自己去做非理性事情是在滿足自己, 其實他們連自己是什麼也不知道, 又或是根本世上沒有事情是理性或非理性,只有知道自己想做什麼而不去想別人想你做什麼, 這才是所謂的'正常')


凡能夠說的，都能夠說清楚；凡不能談論的，就應該保持沉默。(很多事情不是言語可以表達清楚,不過也是最基本的溝通表達方法; 用音樂,藝術等文化活動去顯示是具創造力的,是超遠談論)


神秘的不是世界如何存在，而是它竟然存在。(世事千變萬化,到處都是驚喜,有時候是無謂去問為什麼)


假如我非得依靠梯子才能到達我要去的地方，我就會放棄去那兒的念頭，因為我必須去的地方是我現在站立的地方。( 做人真的不要太給所謂的事實控制,有時候要想想另類方法, 最好的方法是還原基本,看清楚自己究竟是什麼,從那裹開始)


陷入哲學困境就像這樣一種情況：一個人在房間里想要出去，卻又不知道怎麼辦。想從窗跳戶出去，可是窗戶太小；試著從煙囪爬出去，可是煙囪太高。然而只要一轉過身來，他就會發現，房門一直是開著的！


因為讀了艾未未的訪問才知道維根斯坦這位語言哲學家,我十分佩佈他的思考方法, 彷彿只要跟著他的模式,便能夠解決所有問題. 他令我知道, 解決問題並非是要有更多更新的事實,而是怡當地安排已知的和注意表達的方式. 他提到'凡不能談論的，就應該保持沉默' ,不是說閉咀.那就是時候用音樂,藝術等文化活動去顯示.還有要了解事物的本質,我要也包括人, 想一想他們的使用可能性.

阿雪 - 前度，去你的

words by 阿雪
music by 阿p (my little airport)
video by ka

前度　去你的　
在分開的第212天
我聽到一些關於我們的傳言
我沒有故作大方
隨即將你從facebook及msn中刪除掉
以為你不會再在我眼前出現
但你那些礙眼的遺物就在我的跟前
心裡不禁低聲罵了一句　去你的
沒錯　去你的
去你的壞品味
去你的飄忽不定
去你的表裡不一
去你的不三不四九唔搭八
去你的虛假的甜言蜜語
去你的嘔心的英雄主義
去你的從不欣賞我為你寫的一字一句
去你的居然背著我偷偷愛上別人
去你的浪費了我兩年光陰
去你的
前度　去你的

Self confession(lip singing)

When i was recording these videos, i was not drunk, i didn't take drug, i didn't have sex before,it was a true me.
I made these videos because they are my tribute to Beth in the Portishead.
I find it really interesting to look at myself in the video and these days i have been affected a lot by the performance artist Marina Abramovic, i learnt to face myself.
i used to hate looking at myself in the mirror, photographs,video, even i hate to hear my voice.
i am not under a depression, i am trying to experiment life sort of.. as the first thing to do is to face myself

Self confession from Dorothy Fu on Vimeo.

Self confession 2 from Dorothy Fu on Vimeo.

Portishead - Over (HD Official Video)

Portishead - Elysium (Live at Roseland NYC)

James Turrell's Wolfsburg project

今天又是傷心的日子
今天見到JEAN又在煩惱中
今天我一口氣吃掉LIYANG給我的KITKAT
今天又知道親愛的SHIN再跌入更迷失狀態中
今天我終於遇見OSCAR 我在我們友誼的擁抱中感動落淚
今天又是煙霧瀰漫 無論是室外或是室內

全世界我最喜歡的家人和朋友都喜歡我
唯獨只有一個他 只有他不明白我

Artists of light and space

James Turrell

Anthony Mccall- Between you and i

Lost in translation

Real friendship doesn't need translation.

Lost in Translation - Coldplay "Trouble"

Self portrait

I had a desire to do something that i always wanted to do
Today Live lecture Roger Hiorns said "how you suppose to behave" is different from" how you want to behave"
This is the best line i have ever heard so far.

Nouvelle Vague!!!!!!!!! in Rescue Room Nottingham!!!!

What a night today!
i felt like i had a really really amazing climax after sex
the gigs is brilliant!
i can't believe i met the real Nouvelle Vague!!
they came to Nottingham all away from France!!
Mecibeaucoup.........!<3

I AM SO GLAD THAT JEAN WAS SO ENJOYED IT!

I am so excited about it!! OMG
still now i am dancing and singing!
Nadeah  is so sexy!!!!!!!!!!!
i wish i can dance like her on the stage! her movement became part of the music!!!!
MELANIE PAIN's voice is so sweet and cute!!!!!!!!
i love them so much! so french and chic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

TOO DRUCK TOO FUCK
HUMAN FLY
GUN OF BRIXTON
JUST CAN'T GET ENOUGH
NO FUTURE!
LET'S PLAY MASTER AND SERVANT! I AM ON THE TOP YOU ARE UNDERNEATH 
AT THE END WE ALL SING " LOVE WILL TEAR US APART!"

今天晚上
我將所有心事
全留給王菲一一訴說


站在愛與痛的邊緣

我大叫只愛陌生人

寫給自己的情書

卻沒法給郵差送出


感情如風逝去

百年孤寂的蠟燭

守望著麥田


一陣一陣的暗湧

好像一本迷魂記

約定就好像情誡

像棋子任人控制


暖昧只是一廂情願


不如去原諒自己


忘掉一切 什麼也不留

我是一個相信命運的人
同時,我亦相信自己有能力去改變自己的命運

目前為至,我不太知足
就因為這樣, 我的眼淚一滴一滴地將我的靈魂蒸發

世界就是如此殘酷
當你嘗過一點甜後
就要準備酸/苦/辣 的來臨

我正在與時間搏鬥
有一種無名的勇氣
叫我去挑戰自己的耐性

我不想輸給孤獨
我不想敗給寂寞


但矛盾就好像一根根刺 刺在我胸膛
我對著空氣說話
就好像你永遠也沒有出現在我的夢中


幸好我還有一個你
彷彿我們能夠心靈溝通
語言從來不是障礙
原來我一直沒有放棄過你
而時間又很慷慨地給我們一個失而復得的機會


不過我知道
到最後我是那唯一
唯一能拯救自己的人


我可能會笑自己
這是第多少次
自己倒下而再站起來


外面的煙火聲就好像跟我說
世上沒有東西會長留
一瞬間的快樂
轉眼會化成空氣
然而我們卻是靠著它而存活
因為記憶變成經驗
使我們一直成長

Collage in my room,2010
photos,transparent sheet

Attempt to stay with artists,2010
Photo,postcards
To dear Egon, Emin and Dan

making process in week 4

i put stuff in the stocking rather than only glowsticks
for example, a coloured battery
but i am still focusing on the fluorescent coulors
i obsessed with the pattern of stretching veil/fishnet under a dark or bright object
i am thinking if i can project a video on the white cardboard
i know it looks like something insignificant stuffs hanging together
i am just still developing...

endlessly mind wandering

Google map Street view function
Tsuen Wan Hong Kong
I did appeared in there
my heart is leading me to there
to where i born and grow
i closed my eyes to pictured the street views privately
sometime before i went to bed or just woke up in the morning
thanks to the technology i can see my hometown anytime
i would never forget the way to home

i am now like being into pieces
struggle to live with every different roles every day
i am very very lost
as if i am a feather floating in the air
time is playing me
it is like fire it is dangerous
life is full of contradictions
Expectation is stud or thorn on roses
but i am forced to be numb
The oxygen in the moment that i breathe
the only reminder of being alive

serious homesick

4options before death
pen,watercolour,marker,masking tape
2010.10.23

Le Pont Mirabeau-Guillaume Apollinaire

Mirabeau Bridge

Past Mirabeau bridge flows the Seine
                       And our love
Must I remember
Joy followed always after pain

           Let night come    sound the hour
           Time draws in     I remain

Hand in hand let us stay face to face
            While past the
Bridge of our embrace
Flows one long looks' weary wave

           Let night come    sound the hour

           Time draws in     I remain

Love creeps by like the flowing tide
          Love slips by

How slow is life and
Expectation how violent

            Let night come    sound the hour

           Time draws in     I remain

Days creep by the weeks creep by

         Neither past

Time nor loves return

Past Mirabeau bridge flows the Seine

           Let night come    sound the hour

           Time draws in     I remain 

light in stocking

the light under the veil

i keep on experiment the light painting. I put the glow sticks in black stockings
as you can see the picture above, i love the detail of the veil reflecting the fluorescent light.