Self portrait

I had a desire to do something that i always wanted to do
Today Live lecture Roger Hiorns said "how you suppose to behave" is different from" how you want to behave"
This is the best line i have ever heard so far.

Nouvelle Vague!!!!!!!!! in Rescue Room Nottingham!!!!

What a night today!
i felt like i had a really really amazing climax after sex
the gigs is brilliant!
i can't believe i met the real Nouvelle Vague!!
they came to Nottingham all away from France!!
Mecibeaucoup.........!<3

I AM SO GLAD THAT JEAN WAS SO ENJOYED IT!

I am so excited about it!! OMG
still now i am dancing and singing!
Nadeah  is so sexy!!!!!!!!!!!
i wish i can dance like her on the stage! her movement became part of the music!!!!
MELANIE PAIN's voice is so sweet and cute!!!!!!!!
i love them so much! so french and chic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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TOO DRUCK TOO FUCK
HUMAN FLY
GUN OF BRIXTON
JUST CAN'T GET ENOUGH
NO FUTURE!
LET'S PLAY MASTER AND SERVANT! I AM ON THE TOP YOU ARE UNDERNEATH 
AT THE END WE ALL SING " LOVE WILL TEAR US APART!"

今天晚上
我將所有心事
全留給王菲一一訴說


站在愛與痛的邊緣

我大叫只愛陌生人

寫給自己的情書

卻沒法給郵差送出


感情如風逝去

百年孤寂的蠟燭

守望著麥田


一陣一陣的暗湧

好像一本迷魂記

約定就好像情誡

像棋子任人控制


暖昧只是一廂情願


不如去原諒自己


忘掉一切 什麼也不留

我是一個相信命運的人
同時,我亦相信自己有能力去改變自己的命運

目前為至,我不太知足
就因為這樣, 我的眼淚一滴一滴地將我的靈魂蒸發

世界就是如此殘酷
當你嘗過一點甜後
就要準備酸/苦/辣 的來臨

我正在與時間搏鬥
有一種無名的勇氣
叫我去挑戰自己的耐性

我不想輸給孤獨
我不想敗給寂寞


但矛盾就好像一根根刺 刺在我胸膛
我對著空氣說話
就好像你永遠也沒有出現在我的夢中


幸好我還有一個你
彷彿我們能夠心靈溝通
語言從來不是障礙
原來我一直沒有放棄過你
而時間又很慷慨地給我們一個失而復得的機會


不過我知道
到最後我是那唯一
唯一能拯救自己的人


我可能會笑自己
這是第多少次
自己倒下而再站起來


外面的煙火聲就好像跟我說
世上沒有東西會長留
一瞬間的快樂
轉眼會化成空氣
然而我們卻是靠著它而存活
因為記憶變成經驗
使我們一直成長

Collage in my room,2010
photos,transparent sheet

Attempt to stay with artists,2010
Photo,postcards
To dear Egon, Emin and Dan

making process in week 4

i put stuff in the stocking rather than only glowsticks
for example, a coloured battery
but i am still focusing on the fluorescent coulors
i obsessed with the pattern of stretching veil/fishnet under a dark or bright object
i am thinking if i can project a video on the white cardboard
i know it looks like something insignificant stuffs hanging together
i am just still developing...

endlessly mind wandering

Google map Street view function
Tsuen Wan Hong Kong
I did appeared in there
my heart is leading me to there
to where i born and grow
i closed my eyes to pictured the street views privately
sometime before i went to bed or just woke up in the morning
thanks to the technology i can see my hometown anytime
i would never forget the way to home

i am now like being into pieces
struggle to live with every different roles every day
i am very very lost
as if i am a feather floating in the air
time is playing me
it is like fire it is dangerous
life is full of contradictions
Expectation is stud or thorn on roses
but i am forced to be numb
The oxygen in the moment that i breathe
the only reminder of being alive